Here I am
Broken again
I've been put back together too many times
I don't know if I can handle this
What have I done wrong?
Lord, please tell me
I gave it up for you
Did I do the wrong thing?
The pressure is too much
I am not sure what to do
How could you?
I'm speechless
I don't know what to think
I'm so frightened
And so scared
Are you here?
Do you care?
Do you see how I love?
Is it not enough?
What am I supposed to learn?
I'm waiting
Waiting for your answer
You are silent
Do you hear me?
I'm shouting, yelling, screaming
I'm falling apart
Can't take another blow
I can't feel my heart
You are the only one that heals
But why would an injured man go back to the man who beat him up?
Did you do this?
Is it real?
I don't understand
Oh God I do not Comprehend
a time of monsters
18 hours ago
Hugs, Ali. Don't give up! He always hears.
ReplyDeleteHe hears. He is okay with our questioning. He is so okay with us being honest in our unbelief. I believe, Lord help me with my unbelief. Be sure to listen long enough to hear his singing over you. He loves you so much and is very pleased with you. Things get hard when we pursue God but they are good and it is right to pursue him. Have faith in his eternal goodness. Have faith that he is purging you of things that 'matter' in this material world and placing in your heart instead the shining things that are eternally important; faith and hope and purity
ReplyDeleteDear Anonymous,
ReplyDeletethank you. You made me cry with both of your comments.