You Don't Know Me

You don’t know me
My dreams, my goals
Aspirations and visions
Did you take the time to notice?
I don’t think so
You’d have to read between the lines
What I love, to hate
See the message in my eyes, no
And you call yourself my best friend
I don’t think so
The people who you’d least expect
Yes, they know me
See potential, even though I’m tried
They search the broken
Missing pieces they find
See the me In the dark
Use the flashlight to see
What’s the line?
Who really cares?
Just tell me what you think of me
You don’t know?
That’s what I thought
Go back to sleep
Slumbering instead of noticing

We Used to Never

My heart sinks when I think of you
Our past friendship that is lost
I cry myself to sleep some nights
I never thought about the cost
Of never staying in touch
Or even calling to say hi
Never getting lunch
Or even waving goodbye
Why did I give up something?
That was once so great
Why didn't I try harder?
To plan a little date
We used to talk
We used to laugh
We used to walk
Together we were
But never again
I wish it weren't true
I wish we were friends
I see you all the time
I see your new friends
I don't see your face
Or you even look at me
You turn away
Avoid my gaze
I'm not saying I don't do it too
I'm just saying my heart aches
Regret of what fate knew was coming

30 Days Naked Day 19

Sometimes I feel helpless. I can't do anything. I am in extreme pain right now. I can't concentrate. I can't seem to study for 2 finals I have tomorrow. I can't get comfortable. I can't sleep. I can't feel. I have so much on my mind. I can't help anyone. I don't know what it feels like. How can I do anything? My heart cries out and longs to help others. And it aches because I can't do a thing. I am helpless. But thank you Jesus I am not hopeless. Hold me now.

30 Days Naked Day 17

I believe in shouting. I believe shouting is awesome. Sometimes i need to shout...to yell..or even to scream. Yesterday was one of those days. Last night I read Psalm 30 and 31, which I encourage you to read also. Psalm 30:2 says "O Lord my God, I called to you for help and you healed me." I am broken just like in Psalm 31:12: "..I have become broken like pottery." but verse 14 says: "but I trust in you, O Lord; I say, 'you are my God'." He is my God. He is my Father. We've been through everything together. He has never left me. Why would I leave Him now? I have done that before, and I have experienced the aloneness and the emptiness it brings. Psalm 30:5-7 "for His anger lasts only a moment, but His favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes with the morning. When I felt secure, I said, 'I will never be shaken.' O Lord, when you favored me, you made my mountain stand firm; but when you hid your face, I was dismayed." Lord I am broken, But you are the healer. Lord I am dismayed, But you are still here. Lord I am lost, But you save me in your unfailing love. I know you preserve the faithful. I will be strong and take heart for you are good.

30 Days Naked Day 16 part 2

Here I am Broken again I've been put back together too many times I don't know if I can handle this What have I done wrong? Lord, please tell me I gave it up for you Did I do the wrong thing? The pressure is too much I am not sure what to do How could you? I'm speechless I don't know what to think I'm so frightened And so scared Are you here? Do you care? Do you see how I love? Is it not enough? What am I supposed to learn? I'm waiting Waiting for your answer You are silent Do you hear me? I'm shouting, yelling, screaming I'm falling apart Can't take another blow I can't feel my heart You are the only one that heals But why would an injured man go back to the man who beat him up? Did you do this? Is it real? I don't understand Oh God I do not Comprehend

30 Days Naked Day 15

I'm tired. I'm scared. I'm stressed. I'm nervous. I'm impatient. School is weighing me down. I'm ready to finish. Life is becoming difficult. Halfway there Please don't stare I am sick inside and out All I want to do is pout Please end the stress I'm such a mess I'm tired and I'm scared I don't know why I dared I feel like I'm falling No one hears my calling Sometimes I wish I could physically feel Jesus. I wish I could feel him hold me and comfort me. I wish I could hear His voice audibly and know He is with me. I feel broken. I write when I need to vent. I apologize for this discouraging post.