Nothing

I feel so empty
My heart is so restless
Nothing fulfills me
I receive few hugs
I don’t see the ones I love
Life seems to be on drugs
just floating through air
No one sees
No one cares
I need something more
I’m so out of my element
My life’s become a bore
I’m all alone
no one to share
Although I’ve grown
I feel bare
I’m shrinking back to smaller size
Back to where I was before
I need someone to realize
To see what’s in my core

Alone

I feel alone
No one is here
Only me
Crying my tears
I want to talk
But I want to be alone
I am unsatisfied
It’s not enough
To be loved but have died inside
To have it taken away
I’m trying to feel
But this emptiness consumes
I want to be held
But who is there to hold?

30 Days Naked Day 20

"I have to get gas" This Is a phrase I've been saying to myself the past few days. Not only because my car is now on empty, but also because I am just flat out tired. I'm exhausted. It seems whenever I try to place some good in my life, it becomes overrun with the bad. Last Thursday morning I got up a little before 7 to run around my hilly neighborhood. I am quite out of shape and I wanted to get back in shape and be healthier. I was extremely sore that day and the next morning, but still I woke up and ran on Friday morning. I even bought I cool sport arm thing to hold my iPod while I run. Friday I felt pretty bad...sore..and it felt like my rib cage could pop in and out. It did this saturday too and my neck and shoulders hurt. Saturday I night I had what felt like a spasm in my neck and by Sunday morning I couldn't lift my right arm without tremendous pain. Is this what I get for running and trying to take care of my body? I began this fast 20 days ago. Sometimes I feel like God has left me. Even though I have given up things for Him...bad things still happen. I'm tired. I'm exhausted...physically,emotionally, and spiritually.. I'm running on empty.