Ever?

Do you ever cry yourself to sleep at night?
Do you ever ask why you're alone?
Do you ever lose track of light?
Do you ever just listen to your dial tone?
Do you ever feel unloved?
Do you ever want a hug?
Are you ever shoved?
Beaten, bruised, squashed like a bug?
You're not Alone
There's always more tears that are not your own
Even when you're lost in darkness
there's always a way out
Do you need something constant?
Something you can rely on?
I know just what you need Jesus' love will never be gone
Give up and let him lead
A shoulder to cry on
A hand to hold
Do you ever look to God?
When you're down and not feeling so hot
You're not alone

He Prayed for them

They spat and they cursed
they beat him till He bled.
His skin, it was pursed,
he should have been dead,
but He was still alive
all beaten and bruised
sweating blood
and paying everyone's dues.
Although no one cared,
even though no one loved,
He prayed for them
He showed the Father's love.
Although the pain was unimaginable
and even though He could barely breathe,
with pierced hands
and pierced feet,
with a side bursting fluids,
even when He didn't stop hurting
even with this huge burden upon Him
he took the blows of everyone's wrongs,
and even though we did this to Him
He prayed for us.

I can't live without You

I’ve come to see it all,
the bigger picture.
I can’t live without you.
I could live without all the money in the world
I could live without a house,
a roof over my head.
I could live without possesions
or even without any friends.
I’d still be alive
I’d still breath
but without you
everything falls apart.
Even if I seemed to have “everything”
You hold everything together
I can’t live without you

Right Here Beside Me

When you’re
on your knees
and you’re
screaming please
God I can’t do this on my own.
You realize
that you’re
not alone
and He’s right there
beside you
and you can’t help but cry
cause you know it’s alright.
You’re in His presence
and it reasures you
of everything,
everything that was promised.
The plans that you know He has,
they’ll all come true
and you know
everything will work out for the good
because you’re
not alone.
He’s right there beside you
and you can’t help but cry
cause you know it’s alright.
Jesus hold me tonight
cause I just want to be with You.
Every breath I take with You,
every step I take will be right behind Yours
and when I run out of air
You breath Your life into me.
You are my strength
when I can’t take another step,
You carry me
and I’m not alone
cause you’re right here beside me.
I can’t help but cry
cause I know it’s alright.

Joy in His Goodness

I love hearing from you:
what you are learning,
what you are doing,
how you are growing,
the joy that’s in your heart.
I see God working in you
and I hear it throuh your words.
I see your heart changing
and it makes my spirit glad.
I want to leap for joy
and I want to sing His praise.
He answered my prayers
I see them answered in you
and it makes me smile
and I can never stop
Thank you Lord for your goodness
Your goodness never ends

Make Me

Make me a servant A servant for You Make me want to Do everything for You Make my heart long Long to know Your will Make my life A testimony for You

You Never Change

You're always there
You never change
You always love
You always know
You alwasys mold my ever softening heart
You always see my every thought
You always comfort
You always catch my every tear
You always keep me safe from every harm
You are always patient
when I am not.
You always have plans
What I do not
and when I do
Yours are always better
You always wait
when I run away.
You're always there
when I come back.
You never change

More of A Life

Life seems to go up and down
So fast that I don’t know
Like a rollar coaster
I don’t know whether to put my hands in the air
or whether to scream and cover my eyes.
I have high highs
and I have low lows.
Sometimes I’m in the valley
and sometimes I’m climbing up the mountain,
I’ve seemed to have lost my thrill.
I miss the joy I had in life.
To get it back I would kill
Depressed and lonely
Everything was going wrong
I was confused and befuddled
I was blind and mute
No smile on my face
No acting all cute
But I seemed to be doing well
Hiding my feelings of meltdown
Would I ever get back up again?
I fell oh so hard Into this hole that’s so dark
and I’m sitting here oh so scared
I can’t see a thing
Not even my own hand
But I feel the dirty garbage around me
And the tears sliding down my face
But I don’t feel loved
But you woke me up
You pulled me out of that hole
You said ‘child, I’d do anything for you’
And You just want to be with me
Want to hold me close
You love me more than anyone could
And you overwhelm me with your grace
So I fall down on my face
Held captive by your love
I won the race
That race that everyone runs
They are searching for something
Something to fill them up
Well I know I’ve found it!
Because of you I am what I am
More than I could ever be
Alone I am only a weak child
But with You I can do all things
And I am joyful I’ve found my thrill
Serving you til the very end
Following my Jesus
Taking up my cross
Because You did everything for me
You gave everything for me
Payed the highest price
Loved like no one else has ever loved

I Am Here

I was there
I am here
I will always be
You need not ever fear
Hold on to Hope
And that is Me
When you have to cope
Bend down on one knee
Talk to Me I always listen
Always answer I know your heart
And your inmost desires
I may not answer what you want
Or the way you think I should
But I know what is best for you
I have a plan
Please listen
I love you

No one like You

I go through my life
Meet every person
Each one has an effect
Good or bad
Big or small
But none were like You
A little tug on my heart
An idea to change my point of view
But no one changed me
Quite like you
No one touched my heart like you did
I’ve been loved
By my family and perhaps a few friends
But their love is not like yours
Their love may fade
But yours never ends
People have done things for me
Even given things up
But no one did it like You
You gave up more than I could ever know
Your life and more
Others may know what I’m going through
But you know it all
You understand from experience
There is no one like You

Trust Me

I was struggling. Fighting. Confused. Upset. I didn't understand. Really God? This is what you want me to do? But what about my life? What about my plan? "I have a better plan," He said. But I was still questioning. What's the plan? Tell me. Let me see it. "I have called you and you have a purpose. I have a plan for you; Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." But I still didn't get it. I didn't see these plans. They weren't tangible. They weren't understandable. But He spoke again, "Everything will work out for the good. Trust Me." I knew He spoke truth. Though I don't understand, I will trust and obey. Sometimes God asks us to do difficult things. But He has a plan, one that is better than we could ever plan or imagine. But we must listen, trust, and obey. And we must also rely on Him for strength to see it through. He will be here with me through it all.

Cascade of Joy

Recently I began an accountability pact with my best friend and we have a series of questions we ask each other to stay accountable. One of the questions she asked me was: Have you let anyone rob you of your joy? I had to say...yes... Yes, I have let people, myself, or the devil rob me of my joy...the Lord's joy. It was difficult to say, but it hit me like a nail. Why do I let people rob me of this wonderful joy that the Lord has given me? Lately, I have been extremely happy, joyous, and excited about my life and what God is doing in it. I have been tremendously excited and thrilled. I was enveloped in the very essence of the word joy, which has the synonyms of delight, bliss, happiness, and enjoyment. But yesterday and the day before I just felt down..for no apparent reason. At work I let myself become irritated with the slightest thing, even snapping at a co-worker. I decided to look up the word "joy" in the bible index. I came up with 10 pages of results. Wow, that must mean that it's important. After reading just a few, I realize that God gives us JOY and the Lord is good and we should rejoice in Him. I once heard that God gives us joy, but it is our choice whether to accept it and rejoice. It's like God is just pouring down joy and it's rushing down like a wonderful waterfall and we are standing there in front of it. It's our choice whether or not we step into it and become engulfed by this joy. God's joy is waiting, will you accept it? Or will you let someone rob you of your joy? My challenge to myself is to accept this wonderful gift of joy the Lord has given me and to walk into the waterfall and be enveloped by bliss. I will try my best not to let anyone rob me of this joy and to focus my eyes on Jesus because I can only do this with His help.

30 Days Naked Day 21

Do you ever feel like you've been replaced? Maybe your best friend replaced you with their boyfriend/girlfriend, or perhaps someone else recieved that promotion and you didn't. Perhaps you tried to help someone out and you got them started but they just went ahead without you. You're left behind..in the dust..not sure where to go or what to feel. Should you be upset? Should you just move on? Should you be sad? Hurt? Do you think you have this "spot" in someone's life? Will it be taken away? Will they change their minds in an instant? The human mind is waivering and unpredictable. What will be taken away and what will stay is uncertain. This life is not fulfilling. I can't find my worth in others or how they view me. Only Jesus.

30 Days Naked Day 18

I once heard it said that once you are born, you begin dying. When you take your first breath, second breath, third breath, ect, you are slowly making your way to your last breath. In my life, right now, I am slowly dying. So..in a way..we all have a slow death. And since life is full of struggles, difficulties, and pain, we all have some sort of a painful death. We all are dying. Slowly. Painfully. I am not sure about you, but this sounds utterly depressing to me. I really wanted something positive to bring light into such a negative and pessemistic comment. Today I read 2 Corinthians 4. In verses 10-12 it says: "we always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you." Though we are dying, we have a Savior who gives us life. We have this life because of His death. We give our lives in worship to the one who is alive. Verse 14 says: "because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you in his presence." In our death we will have life because we recieve the gift of dwelling with the Lord in heaven forever. Verses 16-18 say: "therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen but what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."

30 Days Naked Day 13

0 comments. 0 comments. 0 comments. Does anyone read my blog? Or even like it? These questions go through my head every day. Why am I doing this? The devil feeds me these lies saying that this is a stupid idea. no one cares. Though these statements may be true, this is not where my gaze should be fixated. Hebrews 12:1-3 "therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, scornibg it's shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart." I shall set my gaze upon Christ and Christ alone. He will not let me grow tired. He will give me strength to finish the race

The Answer

I Need an answer
To this question of life
Is there a secret?
To this mysterious dilemma
Or is it all Just a misunderstanding
Is it hopeless?
I feel incomplete
But When I need hope
I hold on to you
When The world's crushing me
You give me comfort
And when everything crashes down
You hide me under your wing
When I'm weak
You are strong
And when my life is a question
You are the answer
I feel as if all my life has been sucked out
No energy
I need a plan
A purpose
A mission to complete
Something to make me worth something
But i have Nothing to go on with
I'm so weak and so small
I'm nothing at all
But When I need hope
I hold on to you
When The world's crushing me
You give me comfort
And when everything crashes down
You hide me under your wing
When I'm weak
You are strong
And when my life is a question
You are the answer

The Secret to Fix this Mess of Me

This life is messed up. If you don’t know this, either you have been extremely blessed, or you or extremely ignorant. Since the fall of man, when Adam and Eve both disobeyed God and ate from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, man and woman have been forced to toil about the earth until we die and either go to spend eternity with Jesus, or we go to the bad place…and spend eternity separated from Him. But until we reach that blessed point, we are stuck on this planet earth. Some ask, what is our purpose? Why are we here? How did we get here?
The latter question is simple. I for one do not believe that I came from an ape. I do not believe I came out of nothing either, therefore I am forced to think on this logically. Human existence, the stars, DNA, the distance of the earth from the sun, the brain…are just a few things that make me realize that my existence is not by chance. I was designed by a creator.
Sometimes I think that only an incredibly loving and forgiving God would create such a mess as me. But the truth is, He didn’t make a mess of me, I did. My stubbornness, my pride, my quick temper, my selfishness, and all in all, my sinful nature, have gotten me into many different pits of trouble, each one varying in depth. I find myself discontent and discouraged.
The other day I read Philippians 4. In verse 11, Paul says he has learned to be content in whatever the circumstances. I read that and said “wow”…Whatever the circumstances? Like, I’m being eaten by a shark, but man, I’m still content. That kind of circumstances? I read on. Paul says he knows how it is to be in need, to have plenty, to be well fed, or to be hungry. He says he has learned the secret to being content in any and every situation he is in. I gasp. There is a secret. I must know it. The next verse said, “I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.”
I realized then what it was; it was the typical Sunday school answer. The secret is Jesus. No matter how repetitive or stupid or religious it sounds, it is powerful. Only the Lord can give me the strength to be content in this messed up life. I pray that He will give me strength. I pray through the hard times and the good. Give me strength Lord to be content whatever the circumstances may be. Help me be a light to this messed up world. Give me the strength to fix this mess of me. I can only succeed with your help, for I can do everything through you.

How Do You Get Back

You've made a wrong turn
Gone down the rough path
Now you have to learn
How do you get back
Back to the life that meant something
Back to the people that took you in
Back to the time when you were living for a reason other than yourself
You don't think that you can just turn back around
And You can't see to either side of you
You just want to be found
You don't know what to do
You know the way home
But that's not where you wanna be
You don't think you would be welcome back
If it weren't for you, you'd be happy
And you think how
How do I get back?
Back to the life that meant something
Back to the people that took you in
Back to the time when you were living for a reason other than yourself
And I will tell you something
He's waiting for you
No matter how long it takes
No matter what you do
Even if you break
He will take you back
He's been there all along
Waiting for your heart to change
He knows that you're strong
You'll come back someday
Back to the life that meant something
Back to the people that took you in
Back to the time when you were living for a reason other than yourself
And he'll be waiting on you

He'll lift you up

When you think your world is crashing down
He's lifting you up
And when you can't even hear a sound
He's waiting for the perfect timing 
It goes with His plan
He knows how many stars are shining
The hairs on your head
He knows just what you're thinking
Everything said
And when you feel like you are sinking
He'll pull you out
When you can't go another step
He will carry you
When you can't seem to find the words
He'll give you a voice that's brand new
You think it's impossible
Well today that's not even a word
Because with Him you can do anything
Even fly like the birds
He'll lift you up

I Will Worship

I will worship.
I will worship.
God gave me a voice so I must sing
Gave me arms so I must lift them up
This offering I bring
This Overflowing cup
I will worship.
I will worship
He gave me legs so I must dance
Gave me hands so I must clap
What if this was my last chance?
Will I only take a nap?
Or will I praise the One
The one who washed away my sins!
Oh no no, I am not done
You are the warrior who always wins
I will worship.
I will worship