Secret Place

I keep all of your love letters
in my secret little box
in my secret little place
where I can go when you’re not around.
There, I can miss you when no one’s watching.
Only those letters see
every tear that falls
and stains those perfect characters
that you wrote by hand,
the ones I treasure.
It’s almost like you’re there with me,
in my secret place.
Because only you see me
when I’m hiding,
when my mask is off
and the tears are falling. 

Constellation Eyes

I go back to that silent evening

when we were more than friends,
but less than lovers.
Outside, we stood inches apart,
gazing at the stars.
You pointed out Orion’s belt;
I looked, but couldn’t see the shape.
Wind gently played with my hair.
You calmed it with your soft touch,
tucking it behind my ear.
All I wondered was if you loved me,
but I just smiled and nodded
and stared at your brown eyes
that sparkled brighter than your constellations.
Night grew colder and I wanted to step closer.
You offered me your jacket
and slipped it on over my shoulders.

Does Love Exist?

Love
Oh wonder,
I’m in awe.
Nothing I quite understand
and nothing I ever saw,
nor do I comprehend.
Who could even muster?
My heart would break if it ever tried to bend
and yet I crave it.
I thought it was impossible,
because love and I never fit,
but now I want what does not exist.
I only imagine
and I wish,
and I cry when I realize
it cannot be.
Love is of such great size,
nothing I could ever see.

Ever?

Do you ever cry yourself to sleep at night?
Do you ever ask why you're alone?
Do you ever lose track of light?
Do you ever just listen to your dial tone?
Do you ever feel unloved?
Do you ever want a hug?
Are you ever shoved?
Beaten, bruised, squashed like a bug?
You're not Alone
There's always more tears that are not your own
Even when you're lost in darkness
there's always a way out
Do you need something constant?
Something you can rely on?
I know just what you need Jesus' love will never be gone
Give up and let him lead
A shoulder to cry on
A hand to hold
Do you ever look to God?
When you're down and not feeling so hot
You're not alone

Just to be with me..He did everything

Have you ever just thought about the power of God's love? And have been so overwhelmed? Have you ever thought about the reality that Jesus died for you? He died for you. He had You in mind when he was there on the cross. He had me in mind. It is crazy incredible. Tonight I listened to "Love Song" by Third Day. I have heard it before, but tonight it felt like Jesus was singing it to me. I was so overcome I was sobbing...overcome with his love. [1st Verse] I've heard it said that a man would climb a mountain Just to be with the one he loves. How many times has he broken that promise It has never been done. I've never climbed the highest mountain, But I walked the hill of Calvary. [Chorus] Just to be with you, I will do anything There's no price I would not pay no Just to be with you, I would give everything I would give my life away. [2nd Verse] I've heard it said that a man would swim the ocean Just to be with the one he loves All of those dreams are an empty motion. It can never be done. I've never swam the deepest ocean, But I walked upon the raging sea. [Repeat Chorus] Just to be with you, I will do anything There's no price I would not pay no Just to be with you, I would give everything I would give my life away. [Bridge] I know that you don't understand the fullness of My love. How I died upon the cross for your sins. And I know that you don't realize how much that I give you But I promise, I would do it all again. Just to be with you, I've done everything There's no price I did not pay no Just to be with you, I gave everything Yes, I gave my life away. Just to be with you.

Do You Remember?

Do you remember, when you promised?
When you said you’d never forget
And I thought the same
We were so naïve
Do you remember, when we made plans?
You were so sure
And I went right along
Our vision was blocked
Blocked by who knows what
Do you remember?
The want to be loved?
The want to be wanted?
The want to be needed?
All selfish desires Do you remember?

Where is Love

They say love is patient and kind
I don’t know about you
But I must be blind
They say it does not envy
They say it does not boast
But I see people steal and brag
Every single day almost
They say Love is not proud
But everybody is
They cannot accept the truth
Or admit they were wrong
They say it is not rude
But who opens doors anymore
Who says thank you or please
Or even burps but says excuse me
They say that love is not selfish
But I don’t know anyone who is not
They think only of themselves
They hold back when asked to do something
Something that would never benefit them
They say love is not easily angered
But I see angry people all the time
I hear the cars honking and the people yelling
Profanities and cursing come quickly to every mouth
They say love does not keep a record of wrongs
But grudges are held
No matter how small the deed
Things are brought up
Even if forgiveness was asked on their knees
They say love does not delight in evil
But I’ve seen today’s media
I’ve seen the movies that portray
Every bad guy as the prey
Porn and violence and language and drugs
No one rejoices in good or truth
Every one has their own version of the truth
They say love always protects
But I hear stories of beatings and murders and devilish deeds
No one cares about another’s needs
They say love always trusts
But no one trusts me
No benefit of the doubt
Always guilty
They say Love always hopes
But I see a world that has lost its hope
They say love always perseveres
But I see divorces every single day
They say love never fails
But look It just did

30 days naked day 8: Purity

Jesus wants me to stay pure. But how can I keep my purity in such a impure and sinful world? Being pure is being without blemish. Doesn't that mean perfection? Matt 5:48 says to be perfect therefore, as your father in heaven is perfect. But how can I be perfect if I am sinful? I know for a fact I am not perfect. I never have been, and I never will. I can just look in the mirror and see blemishes. But even though I am not perfect, i can sure strive for perfection. With Gods help it is extremely possible. In Matthew 5 it also says: "blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God." I want to see God. I want to be filled with His spirit and be close to Him. To achieve that, I need to strive for purity in every aspect of my life. I can only do this through God's grace and strength.

Just Love

People seem to think I am this good little Christian girl, but the fact is, I’m not. Yes, I am a Christian, but I mess up too. I have bad days, I have had several times when I doubted, and I have definitely done what people would consider “bad” things. I’m not perfect. But who is? This world is full of judgment. It hurts, oppresses, and strikes fear into the hearts of people. “What if they judge me?” is a constant thought in many minds. I know I have that fear. It bothers me though when people have that fear when they are with me. They think that because I’m a Christian that I will judge them. Sadly, this is what many Christians do. They make hasty generalizations about people. They are caught up in being “right” and “holy” instead of just loving on people. I don’t want people to not come to me with their troubles because they are afraid I will judge them. It breaks my heart. All too often, people are judged by their worst moment. The one thing that they wish never happened gets put out into the open and people assume that that is who they are. These are people I love. And if we love someone, we should go out of our way to find the best in them.

Love

Love
Such a beautiful thing
Not just a word
Or a little bee sting
It has power
It drives out fear
So when you’re standing on that tower
You won’t jump because you know you’re held dear
It’s that choice that you made
You made dinner for her
A memory that will never fade
It will stick forever
And those roses that you bought will always be sitting on the counter
Because love isn’t just a feeling
It’s the things you do out of selflessness
And it even brings a type of healing
Patience, kindness, and forgiveness
It’s the choice you make ever single moment of every single day
To love or not to love?
That’s what they say
But should it even be a question?
Love
Such a beautiful thing
Not just a word
Or a little bee sting
It’s a choice
It’s not a feeling
Gotta say it with your voice
Love

Once In Love

He says he was once in love
But he screwed it up
Broke it up
Left it in the mud
Now he wants her back
Wants some slack
But he's getting none
Not even a word
His heart is aching
And he doesn't know what to do
He keeps living life without her
But time seems to go slower
And when he catches a glimpse of her
His heart stops 
Can't breathe 
Choking on words to heave
But she only rolls her eyes as she walks on by