Goodbye Sleep

How do I sleep when there's nothing to feel
I'm numb
Like icee hot
If that makes you numb
I don't know
Maybe I'll find out in my 9th life
Feeling tired isn't an option in a grave
Where all you do is toss and turn
Footprints in the mud
Cover the last words of those that you thought loved you
Goodbye to that numb world
It is better to be dead

Run Away

I’m all alone tonight, sitting in my room

I find myself thinking

Thinking of you

I don’t know how

How to go on

I need to break this now

This habit of running

It’s just like the sweat on my brow

I can’t seem to see, what’s right in front of me

This sticky sweaty mess is blinding

I don’t want this anymore

Running is what gives me peace

This sitting down is tearing me up inside

But I see the track out my window

I sit and stare, but I don’t go

I wish that I were brave

But this fear of staying is unbearable

Where are you?

Where are you darling?

I want to find you

But I’m so scared

Do I even know you?

Are you here?

I want to make the right choice

But how can I, if you hide

I want to run away

Far into the wilderness

Where I can just pray

Pray that you will find me

But if you came I wonder if I’d even recognize you

Tears

I've never fought the tears this hard,
never thought it'd be this hard to say goodbye
but here I am
in your arms,
last hug goodbye
I will not cry.
Determined but weak
the tears
they do leak.
I turn my head in my pride
but give up,
at least I can say I tried

Stood Up

I'm still waiting,
waiting for you to come.
Sitting on the bench
an hour after it ended
still hoping,
watching every car go by,
stifling every tear I cry
with my last piece of cake.
I feel like I'm on a date
being stood up.
I can't even say you're late
cause you won't come.
I think about all promises.
Why do I believe anyone?
I've been let down many times,
given my heart to the people I love,
not an ounce in return.
I called you family
I called you friend,
now I say goodbye,
it's your last chance,
the end.