Beautiful

My mother says I'm beautiful,
but I find that hard to believe.
I look in the mirror,
I stare myself down
and I don't like what I see,
cause what I see isn't who I want to be.
Beautiful isn't here.
Beautiful isn't there.
Where is it, don't ask,
I couldn't tell you anyway.
Searching for the truth,
a meaning in this life,
cause every time I fall
It's getting harder to stand up.
Who am I?
Where are You?
I know I have a purpose
but what am I supposed to do?
I want to be real,
to go where You want me,
but beautiful is far too far for me.
Beautiful isn't here
Beautiful isn't there
Where is it, don't ask
I couldn't tell you anyway.
Where do I go from here?
I can't stand in one place too long,
I'm restless in the wrong.
This isn't where I'm supposed to be,
please tell me
though I might not agree,
I promise I'll go,
wherever You lead me
I just need to know,
cause right now I'm broken,
don't know where else to go.
Beautiful isn't here
Beautiful isn't there
Where is it?
Because Lord I really want to know.

30 Days Naked Day 24

I almost forgot to write a blog today. Amazing. Six days left. It feels like forever ago is when I began this fast. So much has happened since then and there is so much I have learned. But I will reflect on the whole experience on day 30. For now, I want to say that you are beautiful. God created you in his image (genesis 1:27) and you are spectacularly beautiful to Him. I believe that true beauty is in your heart. In Psalm 33:15 it says that the Lord formed your heart. Which sounds to me as if he had it in his hands, shaping it lovingly. Your beautiful heart. ~scar girl