Afraid

Why am I always afraid?
Is this the pessimist inside me?
Or am I just a coward
This I cannot see
I never ask because I hate the word “no”
Am I missing out?
Missing out on everything that is for me
I become jealous
I never show it
I become nervous
I know you see it
Is it my lack of faith?
Was David afraid?
When he faced goliath
Was Paul frightened?
When he was in prison
Was Esther nervous?
When she had to speak to the king
And yet they are seen as faithful
Do I have a chance?