Run Away

I’m all alone tonight, sitting in my room

I find myself thinking

Thinking of you

I don’t know how

How to go on

I need to break this now

This habit of running

It’s just like the sweat on my brow

I can’t seem to see, what’s right in front of me

This sticky sweaty mess is blinding

I don’t want this anymore

Running is what gives me peace

This sitting down is tearing me up inside

But I see the track out my window

I sit and stare, but I don’t go

I wish that I were brave

But this fear of staying is unbearable

Where are you?

Where are you darling?

I want to find you

But I’m so scared

Do I even know you?

Are you here?

I want to make the right choice

But how can I, if you hide

I want to run away

Far into the wilderness

Where I can just pray

Pray that you will find me

But if you came I wonder if I’d even recognize you

I don't think I believe what I believe anymore

I don’t think I believe what I believe anymore.
If only, if only I knew what was true.
My mind fights and fights to try to even the score
but honestly I really don’t have a clue.
When I run I sweat,
when I laugh I smile.
The truth hits me over the head
as I run half a mile.
I just run away from the troubles I face,
no confrontation,
because that’s just not my place.
I need a vacation.
I don’t think I believe what I believe anymore.
Is this really supposed to happen?
Life is just a whore,
repeating itself, and being used over and over again.
I’ve seen these tears before
somewhere in a dream,
they were waiting at the door
and biting the screen.
What is regret?
It is my enemy,
watching me fret
as I pace endlessly.
I don’t think I believe what I believe anymore.

Running

A mess of sweaty curls cover my face
The wind is still
but I keep running the race
One step after another
My shoes hit the pavement
A steady rhythm in my soul
My chest starts to pound
My breathing is on a roll
I listen to the sound
as my strength begins to take its toll